hi there. gavster here.
for some of you who have been watching for awhile probably know about my way over-due request list. and for all those i still have pictures to complete will dread to hear I'm deciding to cancel them.
Some of you may be asking "but gav why? just when you finally got some free time and important life changing events sorted out the way?"
my answer. that's a very specific question you have there.
wait why i am doing humour when I'm trying to be serious?
Anywhere.
The reason i am quiting is because of many reason which i will now list.
1.) friends. if their is one thing i hate to do in this world is to upset my friends. And i think i might as well put them out of their misery. some have been waiting to long. because things keep popping up in my life and getting in the way. this brings me onto my next point.
2.) Lack of motivation. before when i was young and stupid, i used to try drawing pics for anyone that was kindly asked. Why? because i like to cheer people up. knowing that i made them happy was enough to keep me going. but as i did more, i started to notice something which many of you may have found out a long while ago, its just not worth it.
The people you can sometimes meet are either, Rude, F**king dumb, just don't give a S**T what happens to you or are just not happy for what you do for them. So its kinda hard to continue with motivation like that.
3.) Me. That's right, i am partly the reason for F**king up this.
I thought i could do so much in the time i had. but i guess you can never see whats ahead.
but gav? why take so many request? because i like to help, to help improve my own work and because i guess i couldn't say No. Going back to displeasing people, therefore didn't want to displease you by saying no. I guess I tried to swallow more then i can chew.
and 4.) Stress. The fun is gone and is only replaced by pain and hatred.
I mean going back to the "backstabber" journal (which is better now) just proved how much it can change a person mind, to a paranoid, evil mind like mine was back then.

So for all those who have a request. sorry but i just cant stand it anymore. Go ahead. say all the things needed "YOU A**HOLE!!" and "YOU LAZY F**K" and things like that.
But for all the stuff i own to my friends. just what would you like me to do? to Suffer and grow hatred for you? or try to enjoy drawing and begin to heal again?
Its you choice.